Confidence level next to zero

I used to get A1 or Hist, geog, lit when I was in sec2.
Yes I know I'm sec 3 now, things get more difficult than it used to be.
It plunges my confidence right to the bottom
Find it so hard to cope with the drastic changes, what to do!!
Am stuck with it till I lay inside the wooden box.

Maths used to be my favourite subject in primary school.
Now in secondary, I cant really bring myself to hate maths but I dont enjoy doing maths like how I used to. And I get kinda scared when doing it. Feel demoralised when I do a question wrongly that I thought I could do it.

You see? It's used to, no longer present tense.

Have always been curious on how people managed to "study" by copying out notes. Because I think it's a waste of time and tiresome.
Tried writing some ss notes, but nah... didnt work out on me. So I still think it's a waste of time (well at least to me!) and my fingers were on the verge of breaking like how I wrote for eng paper 1.

Wanna know why? Because that Colleen Ng la! Like after 20mins or so, she had already wrote 2/3 of the first page then I was still at 1/5 of the paper. Then I was very kiasu cos when there was 50mins left, I was still not done with my compo yet. So I just ended my compo abruptly lah.

Okay backtrack, I dont have much time already till the next papers already!!
SS and Maths P1.
Well, since there's nothing more I can do about maths already so I'll just do my best.
AND SS!!! Fucking Bavani, okay never mind.
Hafta count on myself and my textbook!!

Muack muack!!!1
NEVER GONNA GIVE UP!!!!!
Love ya Rick Astley!!!!!1